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dios esta vez escribiré en español, tengo tantas cosas atoradas en la garganta que si no las saco explotare.
cuando tenemos un problema en el que no vemos salida, siempre existe una alguien o algo que nos ayuda y motiva a salir, nos brinda su ayuda y apoyo incondicional.
cuando ese apoyo resulta ser nada mas que una hipocresia el corazon no lo resiste, talvez porque el simple hecho de que sea una hipocresia duele, o talvez porque al final le tomaste tanto carinio a esa persona.
y otra vez el sentimiento de soledad, el sentimiento de ver la unica salida tapada.. totalmente cerrada.
jamas podre ver a esta persona de la misma manera.

puedo decir que ayer en la noche mis sentimientos toparon un limite, fue como una pequenia explosion.. donde todo acabo.
el dia que logre salir de este oyo negro (porque se que podre salir) lograre ver la vida de una manera distinta, asi como me percatare de las personas que me rodean.. dando me cuenta asi de que su amor y amistad es sincero.

ante un mundo de hipocresia, traicion y mentira es dificil ver el lado positivo. aunque sea esto lo, unico que nos puede salvar.
pero aqui estamos, y tenemos que resistir, ponerle bandera blanca al corazon.
darnos alas y caminar en busca del sol.

pero las caidas son parte de la vida, y siendo una adolecente duelen mas, pero son estas las que nos ensenian a querer, respetar, sentir y pensar...

about yesterday, well i reather write about what i feel to day! :)
ow what a feeling and its called love.
i have been with HIM 1 year and 10 months and i have always being in love, but yesterday in the middle of my own storm i figure out how important HE is for me, and how much thinking about HIM can help me. once i hear on a movie a quote that say.. a happy memory can save your life. and its completely true.
i have to thank HIM for being a suport in my life (:
i spend all night thinking about HIM, waiting for the right time to call.
and when i hear HIS voice everything starts to feel better and sooner my life get all colored again.
i beet HE has no idea right now, but he basically save my life and what is better he complement my world.
my entire life i have say.. im not going to need anyone never, cuz i have always be scared of loose what i have (specially if we are talking about love).
but now i can proudly say i need you hun.
and again thank you miguel angel!

another emo blog -_-'

like i say once it doesnt take that much to get the demons out of me..

but it take one word of his mouth to make me collapse.

i was keeping the feelings it was like walking and walking until i get to

edge and then he push me, just like if he doenst care and i fall.. one of the hardest falls in a couple of months.

is even worst when you are falling, and you are sure that no one is waiting for you.. no one is going to catch you.

my body starts to shake on the flour and i trying to make it stop..that just make it harder. then the light and the memories (i hate this part) all i can remeber is when i stand up and everything looks weird.

gosh but the i turn around and im in the flour again (cuz actually i never stand up) .

im in the flour, dizzy and all sweat hoping this shit to end.

i pick up the phone.. his voice.

it doesnt calm me., it makes it worst.

the words again i couldnt take so hang up i just wanna rest.

the feeling of losing everything you have takes you to a higher depression, it doesnt matter how hard the punch heats you, it push you down as hell.

to find out that your life is not as happy as you us to think want you to forget them, forget them all, and fly away for ever and NEVER come back... but never is an awfully long time.

im kinda scared because of what i been thinking lately..

i have been thinking of how my dead will be like, and when im imaging it, i dont feel scared at all acuatally i feel exited cuz deaying will be an amazing adventure. (oh man i hate those thoughts)

im living in the shadows right now holding my self on a tinny rope called first love, if it wasnt for that thin rope i will fall.

nothing make sence.. NOTHING.

i have this big shit going to my mind by now. and its consuming my energy ans happyness.

family huh FUCK family cuz all i got is a brother. then all is missing.