para el y para ella.

and so how?
how he became everything i want.. and she became everything i hate.
i know life is NOT what it seems but i guess sometimes si better when we can create our own way of look at that kinda awful situations.
it might be easier if i start with HIM.
yeah, him. well is not that i don't want his frindship but, im starting to feel something different, somehing sorta cute.
i can't tell my heart to stop beating for him or my mind to stop getting jelaous when another girl is by his side. i can't tell my eyes to stop looking at him!.
im almost a 100% sure, he doesn't feel the same but sometimes for some stupid reazon i don't care.
when his hands touch my skin, even in a inocent and friendly way, my whole body and soul feel as i felt with my first kiss.
i know i should tell him how i feel in order to now what his feelings are.
i can try to forget him and move on but in the other hand i can let him know how much im falling for him..
im scared, yeah im scared of figuring out how this "deal" is increasing and growing faster than i thought.
there most be something i can do but im not sure yet..


now about HER.
best friends? what does that even mean? i tought all the friends are suposed to be THE BEST.
she never was enough real or good for me ): unfortunately.
i always had the feeling that she was pretending to be something just to fit in my world.
somehow i found it cute and i was happy.. finally i was able to call someone my best friend.
as the days passes by i realize she was NOT what she pretends.. instead of being cool and stuff she was so patethic.. like the rest of stupid girls in my school.
i can't saw her anymore not because we are fighting or anything.. i just think is grose :)
the way she acts and the persons wich she is hanging out.

im sick of this, of how anything last for me.
friends come and go and im all alone at the end.
maybe i meant to be alone, and it suck's.

IM DONE.