meant for each other

you mean a lot to me.
that something you already know, but what you don't know is that you are turning in ALL i need.
i feel weird when you are not around, but i feel even worst when im next to you.
im not sure if this is okey,, but for some reason i dont really care.
i want to throw my arms around you and hug you! like i never did before.
show you how much you mean to me, and how much i love you.
it's so complicated how my feelings are turning and everything i use to feel is now different
but yeah it was going to happen eventually.
everything i know about you, is exactly what i been looking for.

i dont believe in love at first sight. nope.
it doesnt work for me..
after all this time i wonder how a relationship between us will be, there is only one way to
describe it, PERFECT.

it's hard to believe that we couldnt see!
we are meant for each other.

what's fucking wrong with society!.

kids are turning in to animals!
girls are acting like boys
boys are acting like STUPIDS.
where are these ppl values!?
where are those kids PARENTS.
is aweful and im so pissed!.
not becase is against my or my best friend. IS BECAUSE of how everything is goind down in
society.
if THOSE "kids" are our future WE are so fucking lost!.
Integrity!?? where is it!?
im about to collapse! i think is ridiculous and stupid!. and i wish there was something i could do.

who the hell has enough time to send messages telling ppl "HAY VERGUEO MUCHA" wth is that!?
god!! who fucking cares if you have a problem or in this case OBSESSION with someone.
take yer drama, issues and mental diseas somewhere else! far far away from me and form the ones i love.
and what's even WORST do it on a public place!? is that the point? the idea? is that what makes you cool? well thank god im NOT.
just let me tell you something,( you know who you are) GET A FREAKING LIFE. you are NOT a BOY.
stop it gosh! >:|
BEING drunk in a mall is THE MOST stupid thing in the whole world!!
and yea im sure, when you finish reading this, you are going to call yer WHORE friends and the same shit
is going to happen but guess what I DONT GO to malls, because i know you are going to be there and
watch yer face make me sick :)
besides, dont you DARE to touch, talk or even think about her i LOVE her and im not going to let it happend .. and no im not going to kick
yer ass IM NOT AS STUPID AS YER SOCIETY. im goingo to talk with yer parents and im goingo to make
you go to some jail idk somewhere you can become A LADY.
for all the ones that where there come on ARE WE LIVING A FUCKING CIRCUS!.
you are a STALKER!. SICK BASTARD!.you sick person!

bw i thak god and everyone in heaven! THAN GOD IM NOT YER FRIEND ANY MORE.
:D
i feel better now.

pasaria, eventualmente

perfecion.
si, vivimos en un mundo donde buscamos la perfeccion a toda costa, fisica y emocianalmente..
queremos la persona ideal, que satisfasca nuestras necesidades.
aveces creemos que ya le encontramos, que por sentir un poco de electricidad a la par de esta
persona, ya tenemos lo que buscamos
pero cuando la vida y el destino nos juegan esas vueltas que nadie entiende te das cuenta, lo que tenias a la par no era presisamente lo que merecias.
dado que el lado derecho no funciono siempre tenemos el lado izquierdo!, he ahi lo que yo buscaba.

nunca imagine que suecederia, que mi complemento estaba tan cerca .. a la vuelta de la esquina.
que seria el quien de un dia a otro me daria el "amor" que yo necesitaba.
pero sera esto lo correcto, sera que no es solo un sentimiento pasajero que con el tiempo se convertira en nada mas que un tonto juego.
quizas el miedo se deba a que te consoco demasiado, mas de lo que tu piensas.
te he estudiado, analizado y he aprendido a desifrar cada uno de tus dilemas.
se tambien lo dificil que es esto para ti. no mas que para mi.
tanto tiempo de estar tu lado, de ser tu apollo y el hombro en el que mil veces te has descargado.
miles de historias hemos vivido, cientos de sentimientos hemos econtrado de diversas maneras.
siempre te he amado! siempre, pero nunca lo supe.
es ese amor que se esconde por el miedo a no ser correspondido, el temor de no saber tu respusta.
si, ahora lo se pero eso no lo hace mas facil.
ahora el temor a que sea uno de tus juegos es mas y mas grande.
dejare que sea el tiempo el que se encargue de nosotros.
espero no este equivocada.

stress!

Stress is a biological term which refers to the consequences of the failure of a human or animal body to respond appropriately to emotional or physical threats to the organism, whether actual or imagined.
honestly i have a stress problem.
but lately this has being affecting everything that surrounds me.
i have try to find the stressor but no, i can't find it.
maybe is me .. i don't know.
when someone has stress there are to ways of reaction:
adapt
or
collapse.
and i think i have collapse. in every situation.
the resistance is not enough and is not making me feel better :|
complicated huh yeah and it gets scarrier.

i have no idea why now, when i get mad i can hit whatever is near and i dont feel pain at
all.. until a few hours.
now, i curse a lot MORE than i used to.
i hate someone and that is making me insane! i know.. to hate is a sin.

and sometimes i cant take it! either people around me.
i have to find the reason why im getting like this
maybe is the school or family or just ME.

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Que es esto?
no comprendo como en un momento las cosas giran tantos grados para el lado negativo.
no suelo ser una persona negativa, no lo soy.
pero hoy, no puedo ocultar este sentimiento que esta recorriendo mi cerebro, jugando con mi
espiritu y golpeando fuertemente mi alma.
no puedo quebrarme y sacar lo que mi corazon esta tratando de decirte, debo dejaro ahi.
es muy dificil.. estoy a punto de explotar..
sera tristesa? sera enojo? que sera!?
no estoy acostumbrada a verte asi.. esto es tan bueno para ti.
lo que necesitas para complementar tu felicidad?
pero que hay de mi, donde podemos esconder mi tristesa para celebrar tu nuevo exito?
dios no puedo! el momento del colpaso se acerca cada segundo mas y mas.. la resistencia
no da mas.!

una carta a mi alma..

querida alma:

que pasa con tigo!?
que te sucede! deja de ser asi!
basta con esos pensamientos y esa manera de ver la vida.
porque no aprendes a girar tu cabeza y ver todo desde otro punto de vista.
estas tan ocupada siendo EGOISTA. desperdiciando tu vida!
busca una meta, cosigue propositos! desifra tu vida... que esta se acaba.
deja ya de criticar las cosas! no eres perfecta.
no encuentras las cosas porque no te das la oportunidad de tomarlas.
y una vez mas DEJA DE SER TAN EGOISTA. no todo es solo para ti.. el NO es solo para ti.
deja a un lado tu estupido orgullo! se mas humilde.
no mientas!!
avece eres tan TONTA.. no puedo creer que te conosca, aveces no pareces ese ser del que me
siento orgullosa..
porfavor regresa a ser la persona que AMO.


sinceramente.. valeria.

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oh seigneur. Je ne peux pas comprendre comment certains ou filles appellent la majeure partie de leur MEILLEUR AMI d'amis. Je crois que je suis étrange. parce que je n'ai pas un : ( je peux dire que moi a des groupes d'amis mais le bleh que j'ai besoin amie :|