Oh my God he is such a wonderful boy in such a beautiful way.

I couldn't sleep last night.
It's almost 10:00 am and im awake since yesterday.. my bed was so uncomfortable and the sounds of the night scared me as hell.
So as usual I start thinking and wondering and dreaming.

6:00am I opened the window to see the sunrise and once again get delight by the daylight. I am fulfilled for the very first time in this year.
Not because of what i lost of what i gained.. it's more for who I became.
I have faith by now even tho things are an effin mess. Im not alone this time and im sure im not going to be alone ever again. He is the perfect company.

Next year terrify me, oh just thinking on people reaction and how they are gonna be trying to ruin everything I built and everything I fight for.
But I don't want him to leave me..
I don't want him to realize how hard this is gonaa be. I want him to stay by my side no matter what.

I don't know how this become so strong in such a short time.. I don't care, all I want is him.
I want him to be mine.. MINE. And even tho I sound obssesed and weird, it's what I trully want.
There are no other eyes that make me feel this way.